‘What is the saddest song you’ve been listening to lately?’ She asked.

‘The sound of my slow heart beats, and the silent cries at night.’

humans not dolls

They are humans not toys to be constantly played with like how childrens do.

They’re a ray of inspiration peeking through the windows of our hearts.

They are stars meant to be admired afar.

They’re extraordinary and aren’t you one too?

A well-known person or not, every single human beings and of course, species, deserves p r i v a c y. 

Although we can’t ignore the fact that there would always be those ignorant people continiously thinking ‘They are famous, they should be entertaining us 24/7.’ Or ‘Who cares, they’re used to this kind of attentions.’

Its not being used to it, its bearing with it. 

Knowing their names is different from knowing who they are. 
P.S. I want to insert a picture but this applies to all not only directly towards them. 

ten days late post



May 17, 2017,  marks my resignation to the childish society and my promotion to Adult society. Some things changed and some remains.

What did changed? My opinion towards our society.

What remains? Too many to mention, it is possible to type it one by one, its just I’m too lazy to do so. In general, two out of the hundreds things that remained to me as I step on the Adult train is my savageness and my love and affection towards tea & to my loved ones.

That day for me was extravagant and magical. The word ‘magical’ is a little childish but it is how I would describe it. 5 hours of smiles, giggles and laughs. Yes, there were several mistakes especially regarding the sound system and my voice (note: I wasn’t able to eat that much so I went to the Sweets Table and ate 2 gummy worms).

Despite those, the celebration was still a memorable one.

Before the actual day, I was too nervous and anxious, questioning myself with negativity.

It turns out to be different.

Not all of our invites were able to attend the celebration, there were empty tables and chairs but that’s not a reason for me to frown the whole celebration. I end up laughing too loud, maybe enough for the Guest at the back to hear. Just kidding.

I wish I could type all what happened that day, my mind is unable to process a proper story telling like paragraph. Maybe some other time.

I already posted my thank yous before that day, typing it again in this post would be a hassle. I don’t want to copy paste it, okay, it would be weird if I did.


If you’re one of my beautiful guests,

Thank you for playing an outstanding role for my first chapter as an Adult, for making my celebration extra special. Thank you, I hope you had fun as much as I did.


Don’t like it because its a trend,

Don’t do it because its a trend,

Like it because of how likable it is, the talent, the inside attributes.

Do it because you think its right.

Its crazy how people ride on the trend train, just to feel they belong in this society, little did they know their unprepossessing and trendy acts causes a stir in someone’s point of view.

Darling, you’re act takes a second but it is engraved for a lifetime.


Between True Love and World Peace,

I would choose True love


Without true love there wouldn’t be peace in this world, this world would be filled with hatred and backlash.

There won’t be peace if there is no love.

Dear no one,

How are you? You’re probably doing fine but not too fine. Right now, I don’t know whether you’re fast asleep or scrolling through your twitter timeline, reading news articles through your phone or what. Though, I do know that even with a guy like you, you feel insecurities and silent anxieties from time to time. 

Do you know what’s the hardest thing in life? Nope, its not solving Mathematical equations or trying to catch a fish with a large bait. 

It’s loving yourself.

I might not be there with you to lend my hand to warm your cold hands up during the cold weather, to sing along with your self composed lyrics, to dork around and to be that person you can call at 2am to talk about the deepest or extraterrestial topics or to be that person you can wake up because you can’t get rid of that one thought.

You might be thinking ‘I wish I’m not alive’, or ‘I’m not a good person to be in this place’. Those thoughts aren’t easily erased, it is permanent, we all have those thoughts during our downpour.

Please listen to this,

Even with the sudden storm, the floods and thunders. There’s a sun up there, ready to shine through our windowpane. 

To me, as destiny pull as closer, you’re the ray of sunshine in my gloomy days and the starlight in my darkest days and of course it isn’t just you, there’s food too.

I’m not the sweetest, talented, smartest or prettiest but I hope I am to you. 

Never forget that you’re far more handsome and sexy than any Gucci or Calvin Klein models to me and of course to love yourself, to treasure yourself because you deserve better than those coffee stains or spilled inks in your hands. 

Shall we meet? 

Not now but at the right time.

A letter to a child’s playmate

During my 18th birthday celebration, at the end, I mentioned someone special, someone that played a role to my life as an inspiration.

Now that I’m 18, it’s time to mature myself up once again, to set some things free and that includes you.

Darling, we’re a pair of matches.

If this love is meant to be then it would be.

You’ll remain as an inspiration to me but in a different perspective, its time to let new feelings be born and not to limit myself to you, the right guy will eventually come and I know, its not you. 

This is the last chapter of our souls playing dates, and soon our chapter as completely different characters will come forth.